Entry Four - Sorry I've been gone so long.

Oh I've left this blog for far too long, I do apologise. I have been busy. Far busier that I ever was with the police.

And so many things have happened, things horrid and creepy and deeply disturbing, and I feel that I should probably tell you about them before you find yourself bored with my ramblings.

It started with a Cyberwoman.

Ianto Jones, sweet Ianto, was keeping one in the Torchwood basement. No one knew, not even Jack. I'm still unsure as to whether I'm shocked that there was a cyberwoman in the basement, or that the rest of the team didn't know Ianto at all. How can you work with someone for that long and not know? Especially as the Hub is COVERED in security cameras and other odd items, and I'm pretty sure Jack has a method for looking all over.

In the end, Myfanwy, that's the Pterodactyl, ended up fighting the Cyberwoman and giving us enough time to get away, though not before I kissed Owen. Yes, Doctor Dickhead. He said it was "a last kiss for the condemned man" but, being on top of him, I didn't believe him in the slightest.

As a result of it all, Ianto ended up being suspended for 4 weeks, and luckily I managed to convince Jack to spend some out of work time with him, to get to know him. I'm pretty sure Jack just hired me to be his voice of reason, sometimes.

Then, there were the fairies. Or so they were known.

Jack told me we were going to visit "an old friend" and then he took me to a seminar on Fairies. I swear, I spent the entire thing trying not to laugh. I mean, Fairies! I know from college that the first real photos of fairies were faked, so I'm hardly going to believe that Jack's friend had found actual genuine fairies. Later, Jack told me that these so called fairies were more closely related to Mara, ideas based on nightmares.

It didn't take long for me to believe that.

Rhys and I came home and discovered our flat completely trashed. Nothing was stolen but it was destroyed. The first time in my entire life that I'd had to be scared in my own home, and I didn't like it one bit.

In the end, the issue was resolved by Jack doing something almost unforgivable. He allowed a young girl, the fairy's "Chosen one" to leave with them.

I thought that was one of the most unforgiveable things I'd ever witnessed.. and then came the Brecon Beacons.

I don't even want to tell you the details of what happened there, it was too much to bear. Even now, I can't quite get my head around it, any of it. Human beings killing and eating other humans, completely stripping the body of meat. And why? Because it made the sick bastards 'happy'.

I couldn't quite cope with it. The things I was seeing, the things I couldn't talk to Rhys about. So I turned to Owen.

Our affair began the night after we returned home from the Brecon Beacons. It was like a whole new dating thing, and Rhys would never know - how could he? I blame work and he's never suspicious.

And then Tosh found out. I know Tosh has had a thing for Owen for years.. I don't blame her, his eyes are to die for, but when she found out that he and I.. well.. knowing she knew hurt me a little because I knew she was hurting over it. Of course, she wasn't actually supposed to find out but she had this pendent.. this alien necklace, which allowed her to read our thoughts. Owen was furious, which I probably should have been but.. I wasn't. Tosh had been through enough. I mean, falling in love with the alien who gave it to her, being used as a hostage..

Torchwood. Life will never be the same again and, yet, I don't want it to be.